Eating tofu pudding again
I feel like I am back in my ten-year-old self once again, content with the joys in life as simple as tofu pudding.
To you. Yes. You.
I’m trying to live in memories and hope for the future and remain in the present moment; impossibly I think I might actually be doing it, but not enough — never as much as I want to.
Expiration
I was nostalgic for a version of myself who didn’t quite exist yet. And, to be frank, it made me appreciative.
Payment in kind
I don't think I ever told anyone this, but I cried many times out of stress over my grades in my time at MIT, and countless more times I have felt … worthless.
Homecoming
I was already starting to count down the days till the first day of IAP.
What P/NR taught me
Besides encouraging me to adopt a healthier mindset when it comes to academics, P/NR has taught me to embrace a lifestyle that has a balance of work and fun.
Taiwan, I miss you
My nostalgia for Taiwan made me wonder why I missed Taiwan so dearly even though I have no family there.
Crisp
Crisp air makes my skin feel endless, unable to tell where my body ends and harsh reality begins. All I can notice are my fingertips. Which seems weird.
Learning
Two weeks ago, I failed a math midterm. Relatively speaking, I guess. I just... ran out of time.
A good day,
The kids stole my bed, and I looked outside at orange leaves, and the air seeping through my window felt brisk instead of cold, and I knew my breath would be visible as I lived.
Reset
I’ve been wanting to walk up to MIT, shake her hand, and say “Hi. I’m Paige. I don’t think we’ve met.”
Advice for a first-year college student redux
Part of the problem is that the symptoms are very similar to the symptoms of many other mental maladies peculiar to the first year. Homesickness presents much the same way: a feeling of disorientation, of “something is missing”.
Here’s a sign
We often get into the mindset that if we can theoretically handle a certain academic load, then we should. After all, that is what got us through most of school before college.
Doing something
In the moment, and even now on occasion, I told myself that nothing felt enjoyable during COVID.
‘Although I only hear sounds, the rich dialogue and background noise make this other world feel real’
A new adventure begins every time I play This American Life, a popular radio program.
The day after
Do I deserve the happiness that I have? I don’t know, but I want to.
Offline
I think we often take the convenience of the internet for granted. There is nothing convenient about sprinting from Building 2 to Building 56 in 10 minutes.
What is culture (at MIT)?
Each dorm is fiercely proud of its culture, down to each individual hall, wing, floor, or house.
Bikes and bridges
While I can try my best to be “perfect,” it’s fundamentally impossible to achieve.
